Anxiety

I’m Not Damaged or Broken

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If there is one thing I can’t stand it’s people treating me as if I’m broken or damaged because of my anxiety. Anxiety doesn’t make me less then. It makes me different. Isn’t everyone different though? I mean that’s what makes this world such a beautiful place. You wont ever find two people exactly the same.

Anxiety may make certain aspects of my life more difficult. My husband orders my food when we go out to eat. I don’t get much alone time because leaving my kids is far more stressful then just taking them with me. Eating at other people homes is a nightmare. I will replay the same conversation about a hundred times looking for the mistake I made that will make the person hate me.

Despite all of the difficulties anxiety has given me, my life some very beautiful things. I am more understanding of people. When someone cuts in front of me at the store or snaps at me in a conversation I don’t jump to payback. I jump to them having a bad day. It takes a lot for me to judge someone. There are a few things you can do that will automatically make me think you are a terrible person. Outside of those few things I know people have thousands of reasons for doing what they do. And I can’t judge what I don’t know.I have learned to speak my needs to the people I love. Rely on those close to me.I have learned it’s more important to have a few people who enrich you life then a lot of people who don’t.

So yes, anxiety definitely has it’s struggles. And some days I feel like I may not come out on the other side. But it’s also given me some of the best pieces of myself.

Remember, if you have anyone in your life going through anything, they aren’t broken or damaged. They may ask you for your help and may need to lean on you from time to time. Give them that strength and you will be surprised with what you get back.

2 thoughts on “I’m Not Damaged or Broken”

  1. Hello! My name is Christopher and I just wanted to tell you that I was touched by your story of anxiety. My heart goes out to you and I wish for you all the strength and happiness in the world! Anxiety can be a most horrendous crippler and it is sad how negatively many people still view it in this day and age. I myself suffer from anxiety stemming from a childhood filled with much abuse and 40 years later I am still affected by it. My sister as well. When you mentioned your difficulty with eating at other people’s houses it brought a tear to my eye because my sister is the exact same way. It kills me to see how anxiety has taken so much from her life. Unlike her I have been in therapy for about 10 years and have made some progress. For instance when my sister and I are hanging out if we decide to order food she is unable to make the call and I have to do it. It is so strange to me that even family members can be so dismissive of the realities of living with anxiety and withhold much needed support and love. At any rate, I really just wanted to wish you well and tell you that you sound like you have an inner strength that will carry you through whatever you face. Thank you for listening!

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    1. Thank you for your kind words. They mean so much. I’m sorry you had to go through terrible things. Especially as a child. I’m so happy to hear that you support your sister and help her through the difficulties. I wish more people were like that. You are a very special, kind person and it gives me so much hope for this world. I hope you are doing well!

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